Thoughts: A Personal Note

 I've always prided myself on pushing through when times get hard, but this week has been really tough. I recently lost a very close family member and I feel like I haven't been present. I feel like I've just been going through the motions every day, sort of like a robot. I am reading and completing assignments but mentally I am checked out. 

I have due dates for reading and papers written in my planner and my wall calendar, yet, I panicked this weekend because I thought our community paper was due tonight. I cried because I thought I let the grief, which is perfectly normal, knock me off my stride. I am not a perfectionist, I never strive to be, however, I find it difficult to give myself grace. I need to constantly remind myself that it's okay to not do something today and put it off tomorrow.

I have not been very engaged with the discussions this week, but I did find time to comment on numerous blogs because that was a goal of mine. If I say I want to get something done, no matter what I am going through I will push through and make it happen. The blogs I've read and commented on were amazing! I'm enjoying our learning community. I finally found the time tonight to sit and read through the discussion board and participated. But I am hoping to find some strength this week to be more of an active participant in the discussions as I am on the blog and twitter.